onwards&upwards

I've been lying in bed with the flu for the past week. I haven't felt that ill in ages and it really got me down considering I was having next to no human interaction for days. But, I'm better now and excited to make the most of this week! I'm determined to make plans with people every single day this week. I can't take my own company anymore. My mind is driving me crazy and making me sad all the time. So it's time to stop feeling sorry for myself and try and enjoy life and not think about things. Nothing will change from lying in bed all day and nothing will change from going out and having fun, so I may as well choose the second option.

I've been looking into Ryerson uni and Toronto a lot more and holy hell I AM SO EXCITED. It looks incredible and the city looks amazing and aahhhh etcetc. Seriously so excited. Although I have to admit, even thinking of that is getting me down because situations have changed and bllleeehhhhh. But if there's any silver lining to this, it's that at least I don't have to be scared that Canada will ruin anything anymore.

So this weeks plans!
monday - uni, work and if I'm not exhausted, pub!
tuesday - shopping for an outfit for thurs, change nose piercing, work, out?
wed - tidy flat, cinema
thurs - work, out for Isla's birthday dressed as a sport and playing drinking olympics! can't wait.
fri - die a slow death, hangover lunch, cinema

07/03/12

Life is pretty uneventful right now. I feel like I'm just waiting for something, and once again have the urge to drop out of uni and take the first flight to half way across the world.

I've not done much in the past few days apart from lie in bed watching movies on Netflix, playing ps3 and eating away my feelings.

I'll start blogging more once there's things in my life worth blogging about.

For the time being, I'm going to eat my Dominos, lie in bed and feel sorry for myself. I still can't believe that I could be affected so much by something I always thought I was immune to. 

Toronto, Canada. If all goes to plan, I'll be living in this city come September. Still unsure whether to go for 1 semester or 2, either way it'll be an experience of a lifetime. The city looks incredible.

Escape.

I haven't posted here in a while, mostly because I have nothing of excitement to write about. I'm back in Edinburgh now just waiting for uni to start again next week. I'm getting to tired of having nothing to do and waking up past noon thinking I have nothing to get up for. Netflix, ps3 and eating have become part of my routine once again. I'll start my diet back up once I have a routine next week, it's just so hard when I have nothing to do all day but eat. I've been job hunting as well but I'll start that properly next week too. I've been out a couple of times but the last time I ended up in the medical room of Hive from falling (my back is still sore), got so drunk that I don't really remember getting home apart from dragging Jess away from everyone so I could get a taxi and I felt so monumentally shite the next day. I'm getting bored of not remembering nights out and my hangovers are getting worse so I'm not going out as much as I used to. Remember when I used to be fun?


Sitting on my bed right now, shivering and hungry. Looking forward to the weekend for whenever I get to see Callum. Mostly because I'm always freezing and he can heat me up.

My favourite book. I've read this so many times and still haven't got bored of it because his writing is just so beautiful. Words cannot describe how much I love this book, seriously. Because of Norwegian Wood I've gone onto read many books from other Japanese authors and as a result I've fell in love with the idea of travelling to Japan and experiencing the culture. I also gave Battle Royale a chance and holy fuck I've never been so grasped by a book in my life. Literally from the first page I was hooked and I finished it in a silly amount of time. But yeah, Haruki Murakami is a fantastic author although many of her other novels are a bit 'weird'. I have IQ84 in Edinburgh which I am dying to get stuck into! I couldn't bring it with me to Glasgow because it's so heavy.

As a New Years resolution I've decided to keep an up-to-date blog of everything reasonably exciting to come in the next year. Tumblr nowadays is just another social networking site, except with the ability to reblog gifs of Ryan Gosling and have the latest episode of some TV series ruined for you. So I figured I'd try this out, although I don't think I know many people who use it.

The start of my year so far has been pretty boring. I've lay in bed playing ps3 or lay on Callum's couch watching movies. This completely goes against my other resolution of being more active + wasting less time lazing about. I'm going back to Edinburgh next week though so things should pick up then hopefully.

Today my wonderful (no exaggeration) boyfriend told me he's taking me down to London in March (in-between our birthdays) to see the Lion King musical. SO EXCITED. Although, I have to admit it's killing me not being allowed to plan anything and my fingers are itching to search for cheap deals on hotels etc. Buuuut it's such a lovely feeling having someone plan for me, knowing exactly what I'd like and wanting to make me happy. So unbelievably chuffed. It will have been a year since we first started 'hanging out' as well. Cannot believe how fast the past 12 months have gone.. Who'd have though I'd stick to the same penis for a whole year. I'm half joking. Anyways, it's going to be an amazing weekend that's for sure. :) My Mum is so jealous. It makes me extra happy knowing that she likes him. I never thought I'd care if she liked/disliked the guys in my life, but with Callum being the first one she's properly met, it's a great feeling knowing that she likes him! She even bought us both a joint Christmas present in the form of a Nando's voucher, how lovely :)

I love the feeling of looking forward to something. It's started this year of quite nicely and hopefully there will be lots more to look forward to. Now to find some other people who use this website!